Friday, August 26, 2011 | 11:31:00 PM | 0 comments
Didn't expect to see D after all this time. I was afraid of seeing D because I know I couldn't control my feelings. Yes it came true. Those feelings just rush back. Many told me to move on and not getting stuck to the past. It's been a year plus since D left, but I still stupidly held on. I sort of still want him back in my life. Ok plain stupid I know. It's not like I wanted to. Those feelings just stays there. He taught me how to love, taught me how to cry and then taught me how to say goodbye. An apology now after all of this time, won't make any differences tonight. Sorry doesn't turn back time. Just because you apologized, doesn't mean my heart is magically fixed. Those hurt you caused stays permanently and can't stop haunting me. I know you're guilty. No matter how I asked you not to feel guilty since it's over and also a year has passed, but maybe its just like how I held on for so long. & I know it's impossible for us to be back tgt again bcos then even if we still stand a chance, you would be under tremendous stress bcos you'll be afraid of inflicting more hurt on me. So maybe the best way for us is to remain as friend..
Penning down my thoughts