I'm having a little mixed up feelings now. It feels like I'm disappointing those who cares and love me. I keep disappointing them with my actions. I don't know how to behave. It just makes me feel like whatever I'm doing now is wrong. I don't know how to differentiate what's right and wrong anymore. This feeling is unbearable, I don't know how to face those who sincerely cared for me. I'm so mixed up..