Saturday, March 27, 2010 | 1:59:00 AM | 0 comments
Is this what they called 'women instinct'? Then someone, tell me, why do I feel so inferior. I love you, I really do. But the thought of her makes me break down. Its hurting me so badly. I couldn't stand her name, her face, her everything. The memories you shared with her, I wanted to cut off soooo badly. I wanted her to be totally out of your mind. But I know I couldn't do this. I know I'm being selfish by doing this, but c'mon, blame it on the human nature then. I couldn't bear this anymore, this is so, miserable.. too miserable to bear and too much to bear. I wished I could overtake her in your heart and I know what you need is time. But I just hated all of this fact. I couldn't stand she shared so much memories with you. I wanted so badly to replace her, to replace your memories. How long is this going to take, how long can I bear? When will this anguish subside? Why must all of this problems rise up? Why must I allow my thoughts to run wild? Why couldn't I just trust you when you say its over and that you love me? Why do I have to lead myself to this predicament? I have only myself to blame, for allowing myself to let my thoughts run wild. I'm sorry baby. I know this isn't your fault and you don't want things to turn out this way, and neither do I. Maybe this is karma, what comes around goes around. Maybe a night of good sleep will help, and I hope it helps. Erase all this awful thoughts and I'll be fine. I'll be fine, soon.
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